Anonymous asked: have you seen this post minniescloud(.)tumblr(.)com/post/23806277496 ? I'm sorry to bother you but I was wondering what you thought about it because I like your posts about gengchul. I think it shows that they maybe are real

It’s not a bother, I like these topics a lot :) And I’m a little surprised because that post is actually made by a friend of mine (why didn’t i see it on my dash though wth). 

I feel like I’m going to get really emotional and talk on and on like I tend to do with hanchul so sorry in advance!

First of all, I’m kind of uneasy talking about Hangeng because he left SJ years ago and I don’t like to think that the only reason he left was because of one person. He has quite a successful career in China, and I’d like to believe that he made this decision on his own. (HIS NEW ALBUM IS COMING OUT THOUGH, OMG SO EXCITING)

 I do think Hangeng was really stressed and a little depressed during the time before the lawsuit. He’s talked about his condition on chinese shows before and how he developed liver disease. He also thought about his parents a lot and I’m sure we all know how easily his tears fell whenever he talked about them. During SJ-M promotions, maybe it’s because he has to act as the role of the leader and all but, he was so so much more comfortable in his home country. 

And there was always a language barrier when he was in korea, so he doesn’t really talk to the members very much and they wouldn’t really know much about the stuff that were going on.

So no, I do not think Hangeng left because of his relationship with Heechul.

But everything else, MY FUCK I’M GOING TO CRY BUCKETS OF TEARS.

Heechul’s cyworld is absolutely ridiculous and he has as many posts about hangeng as eunhae twitter selcas. AND HE MADE A FUCKING WEIBO OKAY. WHY WOULD HE MAKE A WEIBO HE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND SHIT AND ALWAYS BOTHERED JIA ABOUT IT.

The first link she gave on that post is a fake entry. It’s not actually written by Heechul.

But I’d like to add to the cyworld post he made on 100428, the drunk poem about Hangeng. The day after he posted that, he had youngstreet recording, and (omfg i honestly can’t) he talked about how he cried and drank and sang sad songs the night before (the night he wrote the poem). here is a wonderful blog post with pictures you can cry over. And if you go to that link, you can see which song he was singing, and the lyrics to it. I think everything is self-explanatory. :) ………………../sobs grossly

And mind you, Kim Heechul was crying. Kim Heechul. That is all.

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And about Shanghai Romance (the lyric translations on sup3rjunior.com are slightly off, it never says “you disappear without telling anyone”). That is hanchul’s love song. He mentioned before that with these lyrics he wanted to give orange caramel something real, something only he can write. Let me repeat. Something real.

hmm. So the lyrics are about falling in love with a chinese boy and this said boy leaving for china and how difficult it is not to think about him and how this person wants to go to china to see him…

fanfuckingtastic.

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omfg i actually have a lot more to say but you asked a really simple question and i gave you a wall i’m sorry I’ll end it here.

In conclusion, I don’t think hangeng left because of heechul, but they definitely had something beyond a platonic relationship. Okay wow I could have just said this last part and cut the rambling lmao /collapses.